The scribbled story

I know sorry isn't going to sound enough for what i have done. but i hope you try to understanding my point of view.if you are reading the blog,it means i have left your place and it also means we are not going to see each other, again. i am sorry for what you are going through right now.

Efforts are only made when you truly know that you want to be with that person.and thats why iam not going to put efforts in you.this will be unfair to you,and i know you are everything i look for in a girl and we have chemistry.there is intensity,too,something that i crave for all the time.but i call you  my almost-you are quite there but still i don't find you enough.

You don't seem to mind it, and you know that i don't need to be fixed or saved.you are accepting me as the person i am.but here is what i think i do need-someone stronger than my emptiness.when it comes to love,i know i am cautious and smarter than the rest.partly because i understand love-to make it through i have to struggle hard.and mostly because i have felt love at many occasions.

you had said earlier tonight, nothing lasts you think that this person or this feeling might,so you hold on,you are just too lonely.growing old alone is okay. growing together is okay.its okay there were no cracks in your voice,and neither you felt sorry for the person i am.you just said things like one tells a fact-casually and blatantly.things can always slip off your grasp.just enjoy the moment you add before going for the shower.

My almost, a person like me needs to keep trying. i have heard bad things little lies,and everything that made me distant to people and to myself. iam not blaming them how they made me feel. i take full responsibility for the person iam today and iam trying to change. but the saddest thing i head tonight was when you said iam everything to you,and you mean very little to me. its not true. but i do hope i change before i meet another almost