Friday 24 June 2016

The Journey will never end

THE JOURNEY WILL NEVER END

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It was year 2016. I was a reckless brat in that period who has no purpose in life but to enjoy it fully. It was first time I got the train tickets on VIP quota. its unexpectedly expected   .

Its the summer season. very difficult to get the tickets on train . specifically the routes from Bhubaneswar to mumbai   are too busy. because on this season everybody rush to drive to enjoy summer vacation.  I was lucky with help of my relative uncle .I got the train tickets  .


I started my journey  from bhubaneswar to pune by train, sitting in three tier AC coach, there was a beautiful girl sitting on opposite seat. there were 3-4 more people sitting around us and discussing usual stuff  like people used to do in trains. During this conversation another girl has been joined with them they are two oriya girl and one panjabi girl was there.  i realized they were travelling alone. It was not like i was eying on them  and making them  uncomfortable...its just i knew their  presence around me and could feel it. After few hour we  slowly  slowely  started grasping .then after we are became more closure and closure . we shared our foods what ever brought it from home. after few hour the train stopped at  berhampur station. 


Again the train left from berhampur station . we  were sharing our college  stories. with in them the panjabi girl made me more closure to her. like we are very old man. as for that i prepared myself and  finally I couldn't hold any further decided to sit with her.  Turns out that she was also a would be studied law from kiit university ,bhubaneswar .  I was flabbergasted by her pristine beauty and was trying to refrain from saying anything stupid to make an ass of myself. 


Iam not sure whether she sensed it or if it was natural that she shared some stories. of her ragging and few other embarrassing ones. I was Surprised by the way she presented herself. As if she loves every moment of what she does no matter how good,bad or ugly it may be. 

Most of the girls don't show their true self in first meeting. they are try to be sophisticated, mature etc & there she was carefree & ready for anything and everything. Me being conscious was a rare occurrence back then and she made. But,the amazing part was how easily she brought me back to my normal self

We were having a real good time and healthy fun conversion, other ladies around us were also enjoying our stories there by us occasional smiles. 

As there is a halt of around 20 minutes at Secunderabad  junction, I rushed outside station to get hyderabadi biryani. she  was also hold my hand. and we started running towards the shop. after too much of struggling we got the biriyani. and we also played the act on the movie like jab we mate . she take the act of kareena and i was taken the act of sahid. we have started the running behind the train. it was the great moment for me. I never ever enjoyed in a life.


As the train left hyderabad junction, the lunch was out on table of course not mine. They both gladly offered me their food and the desserts after that (thanks to Indian mothers) and our conversation resumed. after some hour the train reached at solapur station. and we have taken selfie together outside the station.


As the time passed, we did a lot of stupid things like playing Antakshari,and also we played playing card . it sounded awful. Giving each other dares like stealing someone's shoes (yes, we did keep it back), waking up someone and asking for lighter etc etc. She told me that she do not have a boyfriend at present & I took it as +1. in between we have exchanged our personal number.  after few hour the train finally reached at pune station.  really it was awsome experince in a train.


.how she didn't realized this before. and we started dating that day onwards.


All this was started in train months back.

I still feel amazed just thinking about it.

I am sorry guys i shortened it up...it can run into hundreds of pages which i will do one day.




                                                                                                             @Shibashis


Friday 29 January 2016

Let This Be My Warning, still i love you from bottom of my heart

Hey, you.
                 If you’re seeing this it means my replies are now quicker than usual. We’ve come to a point where I tell you stories like my dreams and my unnatural jokes. 

Be warned, I think I’m falling in love with you.This is not a compliment. This is a warning.If I fall in love with you which I know I am. I might not stop myself in my cravings to know the details of your life and I voluntarily share mine. I will lose control in everything that’s going on and permit my guts to tell me what to do.This is revolting for me.But we have reached an impasse and there is nothing I can do. Remember the time I value my personal space? Well now, I want you to be always there with me. Beside me.You see the problem?

The comfortable walls I build for longer time but it  is rapidly crashing. I’ve implanted malicious thoughts in my mind that you will not be worth it and you have to remind me time and time again that, you are.I was perfectly fine with the hook-up culture, in fact before I met you I genuinely believe it was tailor fit for me. It was so easy to kid myself that love doesn’t exist.

Now, all I can think of is you and not your ego.you know, there is no turning back.you may be attracted to the confident devil may care for me.but it realty. this is me iam an insecure girl who over-analyzes things and worries about every possible scenario in life.you may not like this side of me. i will find ways to self confident this because I’m scared. Scared, I may love you more than you love me.Scared, that I’m thinking of another person other than myself. Scared, that I couldn’t have the luxury of killing myself anytime I wanted to because now, you’re here.Scared, that I couldn’t fall asleep because every time I close my eyes all I can see is your face and every time I lay in bed all I can think of is your body next to mine and every time I look at myself all I can envision is us.
I’m scared. Nobody actually stuck around this long to see the real me. I will end this. I will find ways to end us.And I may not be worth it.But please stay. my sweet heart trust me. i will keep happy for end of life. 

Regards
Your Love
ରିଂକୀ ତୁ ହାଉଚୁ ମୋର ସ୍ବପ୍ନ.କେବେ କେବେ ମୋତେ ଖୋଜିବା କସ୍ତ ହୁଏତ.ତୁ ମୋ ପୈଂ କେତେ ଦରକାରୀ .ମୁ ଏସବୁ ଜଣେଇବା ଚାହେନା.କିନ୍ତୁ ତୁ ଦିନେ ନ ଦିନେ ନିସ୍ଚୟ ବୁଝିବୁ .ମୁ ଏସବୁ କଂହିକୀ କରେ.